Montaigne’s Heiress


“O. A root.”
August 23, 2008, 6:10 pm
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Most hilarious line EVAR in the mouth of Simon Paisley Day, who was splendid as Timon of Athens today at the Globe! I won’t go and see it again, as Timon isn’t at all my favorite play, but the lead was played just excellently well. (Of course it helps that even though he’s 41, Simon Paisley Day is 3/4 naked throughout the second half of the play, and is quite nice to look at, even through all the painted on “grime.” See the Globe Site for pics of the staging.) Yes, that’s me. Quite highbrow. Screw the poetry, let me coo over good-looking men. At least I’m honest about it. To tell you the truth, he was the only thing the play had going. The staging was… not so good. Lots of creditors dressed as crows being lowered down from a net slung above a stage, and bouncing around on bungee cords. That sort of craptastic gimmicky thing. The director was probably right not to trust the material, which… meh. But still, cut down on the gimmicks and let the actors work their magic. I did clap my hands quite red at the end for “Timon” as well as the actors who played his steward, Alcibiades, and Apamantus the philosopher.

As to why that line is funny, one just has to read the play. (A short synopsis: an immensely rich Athenian pauperizes himself through the largesse he showers on his friends. When his creditors come calling, Timon exiles himself and takes to the wilderness to bewail the perfidy of his so-called friends, who will have nothing to do with him in his poverty. There he dies in seething, black hatred of the flatterers that led him to his self-created ruin.) I must say that the isn’t Shakespeare’s best, but it’s not as bad as, say, Romeo and Juliet or Two Gentlemen of Verona, which are just soul-suckingly bad.

Both of the plays I’ve seen at the Globe have been excellent so far. They’re also doing Midsummer and Merry Wives this season. I hope to see the latter, but I don’t like the former play at all, so will stay away.



Just a slight thing…
August 22, 2008, 6:22 pm
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…re: the food in London.

I went out to the pub with some friends from class tonight. After consuming 1.5 pints of beer, part of a bacon sandwich (no. really. a bacon sandwich consisting of bacon and butter on bread), and the smaller part of an order of fish and chips, just let me say…

I’VE GOT TO GET OUT OF HERE!

Said with all good humor, of course… but when people complain about British food, they aren’t lying. Maybe I’m just going to the wrong places, but the sandwich seems to be almighty. Butter is put on everything. (And it’s put on automatically. If you go to buy a tuna sandwich, they will slather butter on both slices of bread without even asking, then heap on tuna loaded with mayonnaise.) Bacon is put on EVERYTHING. I swear to god. There are chicken and butter and bacon, tunafish and butter and bacon, butter and bacon, egg salad and butter and bacon… and the grossest one of all – what one of my colleagues had today – butter, bacon, coleslaw, tunafish with corn mixed into it, and “pickle” – which seems to be some sort of vegetable slaw in a brown-looking jelly concoction. How has the English race not died from consuming this food on a daily basis?

It’s just mind-boggling. What I want is sushi. Plain, clean, simple sushi. I want it to be on every street corner, as it is in NYC. I want there not to be butter and bacon everywhere. (God help the vegans in this city. How do they cope?) I want not to be assailed by rows of very oddly flavored “crisps” when I go to the supermarket.

Again, said with all good humor. :D There is a possibility I might get offered a job in London, but… I don’t know. I don’t know if I want to stop here, much as I would love to know the people I’ve met here better. It’s not the food, of course. I want something more exotic. Something more difficult.

Until I get an overseas post, I’ve got to figure out how to eat here. I’ve got to figure out how I can get something healthier than bacon and butter on white bread or deep-fried fish, and something tastier than porridge or pb&j every day. (I also have found no grape jelly in this city. I don’t call pb and strawberry jam a proper sandwich.)

God, I long for sushi or Thai food.



Listening to the Beatles
August 19, 2008, 7:04 pm
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Started thinking tonight about the sort of “stages” I went through in my life with regards to belief. Belief that mother and grandmother were good, belief that god existed, etc. And almost all of those stages have… music associated with them. And the stage when all those beliefs started to fall away is irrevocably associated with The Beatles.

I’m not going to embed all of these videos as the page will take forever to load. Just the most important ones.

The Beatles are very tied up with my childhood. From age 10-14 I was fairly obsessed with them – their music is… pretty much the encapsulation of my childhood. Especially Lennon’s early solo work.

I realized as I was writing this that all my favorite songs come from two albums: the Beatles’ Let It Be album, and Lennon’s first solo album, Plastic Ono Band. Well… yeah. Makes sense. An album full of turmoil for the band, and the album JL recorded while he was doing primal scream therapy. Though frankly, depending on my mood, I love almost everything they ever recorded.

I used to sing along with this one late at night when mother had gone to work and I was alone in the house. Screaming the last choruses with John Lennon – “Mama don’t go… daddy come home…” This song is pretty much what I felt from as far back as I can remember.

This was another one I always sang along with. Even more than “Mother” this one affected me. It used to be the only song that could make me cry. Other people I’ve talked to say that this song was a sort of anthem for them too – around the same ages, 12 and 13.

This song just makes me happy. I think it’s their best love song – from the Let It Be album, which is one of my very favorites. They were just about to break up when this video was recorded. It was probably one of the last times they were just happy like this together.

One of the best lines about Jesus – even better than in “God” – is “There ain’t no Jesus gonna come from the sky / now that I found out I know I can cry.”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7hdXZTm4Qk

This is one of their more beautiful songs. It would always piss me off that mother would sing it at me whenever we had a quarrel and she wanted me to shut up – or to tell me that she wasn’t going to listen me. But fuck mother. It’s a great song. I tend to listen to it when I’m alone and upset.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67J_66hdN-I

Have a bonus one from Hard Day’s Night, just because.

hhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6l1mtTxLHBs



Things Aren’t That Different – a rant
August 18, 2008, 4:14 pm
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For those who have seen the discussion I’ve been having on the FDR board, I must lead off by saying that this is NOT in any way a rant against the people posting in that thread. If anything, it is a rant against a certain deeply-ingrained attitude – what that is and by whom it was ingrained I shall have occasion to speak of later – that has taken hold of modern man, and simply won’t let go. It’s the sort of idea that I’ve wanted all my life to fight. That I have pledged my life to fight.

The “thing” of which I am speaking is the notion that our ancestors and their actions and mindsets are simply unfathomable. That we, at the pinnacle of technology, living in an age when man is no longer the measure of all things, cannot understand how ancient man thought and felt, what his cares and sorrows were, or that we can do nothing but measure him according to our standards, and have him come up short.

The truth is that things simply aren’t that different. Anyone reading this blog – I assume that everyone reading this blog is an exponent of western culture, and currently lives in the west – has MUCH more in common with any first century Roman than he has with any twenty-first century Hindu, or Buddhist, or Daoist, or [insert eastern religion here]. Any westerner has much more in common with those flowers of 14th century chivalry Jacques Lalaing or Enguerrand de Coucy than he does with anyone who has grown up in a culture which is primarily eastern.

Why such a veil between us and our ancestors? How did it come about?

Chiefly, I think, by the priggish and parsonic moralists of the Victorian era, that great ruin and ruiner of history. For in the Victorian era, interest in the Middle Ages as a sort of romantic time was revived. Victorians viewed the Middle Ages much as Rousseau viewed his noble savage. A sort of creeping eighteenth century sentimentalism crept into the Victorian notions of the Middle Ages. Anything that was not to their liking was either highly sanitized or overblown into a horridly crude charicature of the actual events/persons/mindset in order to provide some sort of saccharine moral lesson. It was in the sick and sickening Victorian mind that such abominations as “ius primae noctis” and other stupid and ahistorical notions of the right of the lord to sleep with a peasant woman on her wedding night. Yet this unproven and unprovable “fact” finds its way into the popular imagination, popular histories, and popular culture.

The Victorians had a need to be superior. A need to maintain their empires of the mind as well as of the flesh. A need to rule both their conquered lands and to maintain the notion that they had a right to do so by dint of their superiority. A sort of intellectual “white man’s burden” to clean up history and make suitable extracts from it. The Victorians re-interpreted medieval art, clothing, and literature to suit their own “refined” tastes. They had to be superior to medieval man, though, and so the era was re-characterized as 1,000 years of plague and war. Yet the plagues and the wars were much more common in the Victorian era than in the medieval! Victorian society was in retrograde. It was going BACKWARDS from the heights achieved by the Enlightenment, and it needed to cover its tracks. (This is why the myths still persist today. We are as a species nowhere near the intellectual heights achieved by the Enlightenment, the Renaissance, or even the High Middle Ages, not to mention the Romans and Greeks. We are a species in retrograde.)

It is generally known amongst historians that any book written in the Victorian era is pure rubbish, and should not be relied on in scholarly works. (There IS some true history in Victorian books, of course, but this can always be taken from other sources, much better researched and written, and with more reference to primary sources.) And yet the Victorian histories are PRECISELY where most of the drivel that is fed to children in schools these days is taken from. The learning in schools, of course, is 100 years behind the forefront of historical research.

The veil was not always down. We did not always view our ancestors through the dark glass of centuries. No. The people of the Enlightenment did not view history as dead and gone. The writers Froissart, Tacitus, Livy, Thucydides… these were all their friends. The attitude was not of foreigners or distant strangers looking backwards at time through a mirror. The kinship was acknowledged. The Enlightenment acknowledged how much it owed to the Renaissance, to the medieval scholastics, and to the Roman and Greek historians. A wall was not set up between “them” and “us.”

Why such a difference between Enlightenment man and Victorian? The Victorians, much as I blame them for benighting and condemning my “friends” in the past, they did not cut their sins from whole cloth. They inherited them from others. From whom? From other people who needed the same sort of self-aggrandizing BS that the Victorians did. Yes, ladies and germs, from the Renaissance.

The people of the Renaissance were, of course, much closer in mindset to their immediate ancestors in the middle ages than we are. They therefore had a greater need to differentiate themselves from them than we do. Renaissance tomes are filled with interesting paradoxes – filled with a tension between the nobility, still living in the middle ages, and intellectual man, living in the new world born of commerce, ingenuity, and exploration. They tend to discount wholesale anything that came between the fall of Rome and Petrarch. The fad was for everything Roman and Greek. Chuck everyone and everything else out, and in with Cicero, Plato, Socrates, and Sophocles. (This would happen again in the Enlightenment, which was a reaction to the odious splendor of the Baroque.)

History goes in long cycles, I think. There was the eastern mysticism of ancient Egypt and the early Greek civilizations. Then came republican and stoic Greece and Rome. Then Byzantium carried the pale, flickering flame of humanity until it burst into high and glorious splendor in the High Middle Ages. The flame sputtered again in the wastes of the 14th and early 15th centuries, until the higher per-capita wealth left in the wake of the Black Death sparked increases in commerce and then, at last, a second Renaissance. This collapsed in the fitful struggles and decadence of the Baroque, which was rescued by the wonders of the Enlightenment, and… now we are again benighted. 300 years of… god.

Now, some of this is what the Victorians would have us believe. Weird, eastern, pantheistic Egypt. Straight-backed and philosophical Greece and Rome. Muddy, plague-ridden, benighted medieval Europe. A bright flame of beauty and grandeur in the Renaissance. Decadence and gain-seeking in the Baroque. The collapse of the divine right of kings and the ushering in of science in the Enlightenment.

All of these are caricatures. Some of them are useful caricatures. Not all. And the middle ages always, ALWAYS gets the short end of the stick. Because people can’t resolve its contradictions. They can’t appreciate them. That wall thus descends. Anything that we can’t make sense of, or don’t want to, we must discard, and certainly disown.

What would it mean, though, if you have more in common with a medieval peasant than a Hindu untouchable? What would it mean if you acknowledged that peasant, and his mindset, as similar to you and to your mindset? I’ll tell you what: Christians have the same violent reaction when contemplating the fact that we evolved from apes. It is the same sort of fear, revulsion, and disbelief.

I’ll let you in on a bit of a secret: a medieval peasant was Christian because he had to be. Not because someone would come and bonk him on the head with a sword if he wasn’t. We define mysticism as belief which is outside the accepted laws of nature. But the peasant didn’t know them. He didn’t know the laws of thermodynamics, except by what he could empirically observe. Kepler wasn’t around yet. Nor was Newton. The basis of science was not yet laid. The medieval peasant didn’t know the laws of nature that we do because he couldn’t. And, frankly, he had as much reason for believing in divine influence in daily life as we do in gravity. I’ve never seen anyone prove gravity to me. I’ve never seen the mathematics behind it. But I can see my watch falling off the table when I push it. And to a medieval peasant, the fact that it rained after he prayed to Jesus was not due to condensation in the sky of water from the oceans, but because he prayed. That, to him, was an empirical, observable fact. He had no other, and could have no other. No other belief was possible to him in the absence of science.

You can think of the rise of science in terms of your own knowledge. Did you study aeronautical engineering at age 7? No. You studied simple addition. Then multiplication. Then algebra and geometry. Then calculus. And then when you finally had the base knowledge required, you began to study applied science – if you ever did. Well… criticising a medieval peasant for being “supersitious” is like criticizing a 10 year old for not being able to show you the mathematics behind gravity. He doesn’t know because he can’t yet know.

There are, of course, many modern people who share the medieval view that things for which they don’t have an explanation are the divine will of God. They need God in their lives, at the switch, manning the controls. The fundamentalist Christian is thought of as “medieval” in his mindset. Yet it’s not even of the fundamentalists that I’m speaking. Medieval man was ingenious. He invented, he made, he shaped, and he worked with his mind and his hands. Medieval man was, in his crude way, a scientist. An empiricist. Look at any medieval castle. Just look at it. And try to forget skyscrapers. Try to forget the modern era. Look and think: this was built by MEN. By hand. Hundreds of men with hand tools. Hundreds of men working out how to get 1-ton blocks of stone from hundreds of miles away. Hundreds of men doing the calculations to figure out how to lift them. Hundreds of men hauling with all their might to place each stone. All by men. Look at Chartres Cathedral. A masterpiece of exquisite beauty. Made by men. Made with machines powered by men, and thought of by men. By empiricists and scientists living in that most “benighted” of all ages. You look at a cathedral and tell me that there was not greatness in men’s souls. And you tell me that we should not be proud to be their intellectual descendants. You just try it.

The Victorians, of course, stood at the pinnacle of history (or what they believed was the pinnacle of history) casting aspersions at the logical equivalent of mathematics-challenged 5-year-olds. And we still do the same today. We still teach our children the shopworn tenets of Victorian exceptionalism. And it’s really, really time we stopped.



Interviews!!
August 13, 2008, 5:55 am
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So I’ve set up an interview with a language school in Moscow. It’s a sweet position – salary is only $1200 a month, but that’s free of Taxes. It also includes a fully-furnished, all-bills-paid apartment, health care, all transportation and visa expenses, 22 paid vacation days, and I’ll get both a contract-end and Christmas bonus, each equal to a month’s salary.

Frankly, all I’ll need to spend money on in Moscow is food and entertainment. And since both can be had relatively cheaply… yay! Just the Christmas bonus alone will nearly pay the guide and permit fees for Kilimanjaro. And, of course, the contract is academic-year-only, which means 9 months. So I have 3 months off in which to go climbing.

The war with Georgia seems to be quite in hand, so… I see very little reason why I shouldn’t at least do the interview.

I’ve also got an interview for Mongolia in the works. Hello Ulaanbaatar!



So far…
August 10, 2008, 4:15 am
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…I’ve applied for jobs in:

Moscow, Russia
St. Petersburg, Russia
Surgut, Siberia, Russia
Jakarta, Indonesia
Ulaanbaatar, Mongolia
Rzeszow, Poland

Not my first choices (Moscow is my 3rd choice, actually) but hey, needs must. After I complete my first year’s contract, everything will open up to me.

From the pictures, Ulaanbaatar is a rather nice place. I don’t like mutton, though.



Far too Busy!
August 7, 2008, 10:30 am
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Yes, I am far too busy. But it is a pleasant sort of busy.

Taught my first 40-minute lesson yesterday. I quite enjoyed it! I teach again tomorrow.

Learning loads. Beginning to send out query letters for jobs. So far, mostly in Russia. I might be spending this long, cold winter in Moscow! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexcellent. :D

Flatmate and her two children are very nice indeed. Beautiful views of London. No pictures as I’ve broken my camera. Alas!



7 years, 7 summits
August 4, 2008, 7:01 pm
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I just started a bank account with the label “Everest.” $1 a day towards my dream. At this point, I’d only need 70,000 days to make it come true. But come true it will, in much less than 70,000 days.

I’m making a commitment now: 7 years, 7 summits. In this order:

Kilimanjaro – December 2008 or August 2009

Aconcagua – December 2009 or January/February 2010

Elbrus – August 2010

Denali – June 2011 (depends on Kilimanjaro date)

Carstensz Pyramid – November 2011

As-yet-to-be-determined mountains – 2012

Vinson – January 2013

Cho Oyu – (practice for Everest) August-October 2014

Everest – March-May 2015 (will be spending my 29th birthday on the mountain)

All of these dates depend on finances and weather, of course. If I can’t do it in 7 years because I’ll endanger myself financially or physically, so be it. 7 in 7 is just a gimmick anyway. What’s true, and what’s real… what the gimmick is overlaying… is this feeling I get every time I think about it. Not having climbed all 7 – god, that doesn’t matter. How the hell I’m going to live my life or find anything worthwhile, having climbed so high, is completely unknown to me right now. No… what makes my heart leap with joy is the thought of pausing on the face of one of these mountains. And looking up. Looking up to see the pinnacle, and know that I’ll make it. The white expanse above me. Wanting to launch myself at that heaven. The summits don’t… get me in that way. After you reach the summit, all you do is turn around and go back. No. What gets me is the striving.



I saw King Lear…
August 2, 2008, 10:00 am
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….in the GLOBE THEATRE!

That is all.